Is it just me or have a changed? coz to me now i'm just a close minded, apathetic and dead in just about everyway that involves being decent or a good friend. I've turned into such a bastard. I've become so useless. Nothing really means anything to me anymore. I feel so lost

I really wish i could draw how i feel. it's something i really want to do. but drawing just doesn't come naturally to me anymore How can my life be getting better, but still i wish i was how i used to be?

I'm debating about leaving deviant art. I don't think i'm worthy anymore.

writing all this is useless though because i know nobody will read this. i don' tknow why i bother anymore...other then because i'm hopeless and desperate for attention.

i've only had one day on break, and i'm already getting my head into a battle...excellent